I should have thought so, I should have seen this coming, I should have known. No matter how much effort I put into doing it, no matter how hard I try and whatever way I could figure, it will never change his mind. I don't think there's anything left to be done but just to let time heal my wounds.
I've never felt this demotivated and upset over something. And these feelings, not even words can describe. I don't even know where to start and such. But I feel the heart ache. Sometimes when I think about it, I can feel the sharp little needles poking my heart and I really mean it. People who's been hurt would know what type of feeling I'm talking about.
It's sad that no matter how hard I try, I'm not given a chance to prove myself. And it's sad that the person doesn't see my effort. Over and over again, it happens. And over and over again I'm going to say the same thing, I put myself into this position, I allow that person to hurt me and so I have no fucking rights to complain about it. :'( And honestly I'm not even asking for much, just a chance for you to see what could have been. Sigh.
"I'm not even remotely appreciated and this only happens when things are done for the wrong person."