Things aren't presented to me on a silver platter, I make them happen for myself! (: I am ordinary but living the life of an extraordinary. A pressured teenager working to perfection, yours - Rachael Wong.
Sorry means so little when you're going to repeat the same thing over and over again. And I can say I'm finally tired. Tired of dealing with his never ending nonsense. Being lied to, being ignored and being talked to as he likes. It's funny how I'm so hurt until I can't feel the pain anymore. I don't even feel angry. And it's sad that I can finally say "I'm used to it."
I can't imagine the pain I'd go through for him. And it's stupid that I'm willing to put up with all the nonsense. Well, I think I've had enough. Three months of this sort of treatment? If it was the old me, I'd have went bonkers! I don't know why am I so calm this time around, it scares me how I'm adapting to all these. I don't know if I'm really fine with it, or I'm just too hurt. I am clueless myself. And what's worse is that I put it with all of it over and over again without saying anything. He's only doing it because he knows I'll always be here for him. And well, that's changing. I'm only going to be there for him mentally. And he'll be that guy that no matter how many more guys I'll meet, I'll always have a little feelings for him. Just like how the past 6 years were.
But I won't be your door mat anymore. Get a new one.
I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me. Leave the past behind me. Today my life begins. A whole new world is waiting.