Why is it that I'm never good enough? Not good enough for you, you, HIM, her, that group and basically just every one lah. Pisses me off. Gym ain't doing me any good. I need to push myself to the edge of the cliff, where I'm about to fall. I'm always very tempted to give up. I don't find the reason to do things this way. I should be enjoying the process of it, but it seems like it's a torture and a burden. ): The 'stop' button on the treadmill is always so tempting. I'm always tempted to just click the 'stop' button and walk away. But I always keep myself motivated. Find some shit to say to my mind.
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't just pay attention to my flaws. But that's all I see in myself. I don't know how did my confidence go down the drain, but it somehow did anyway. Maybe perfection is all I'm looking for, but I guess perfection doesn't really exist, does it? Maybe not in my own world. ): Pftt.
I think I should stop talking so much and keep every thing to myself. Even if I were to talk, no one really cares anyway. ):