I rolled myself to sleep, I couldn't help but to think about it.
As these tears roll down my cheek, I think and asked "Why did it turn out this way?" I don't know how I landed in this position and how can I fall so hard. It hurts, it really does. I don't know how to explain. I don't know where to begin. I am amazed with how long I stayed this way.
I tried to keep myself occupied so I wouldn't have time to think about it. But as I try harder and harder, the more I get reminded! I thought maybe I should tell you, but as I type the message. I just keep deleting and re-writing it all over again. And then I'd get fed up and just give up writing. ):
Please keep me away from this pain. Friends, please give me motivation and support to go through this. I really need it. );